Barbitch.

Sekumpulan cerita di dalam Barbitch karya Sagita Suryoputri, menampilkan kisah para perempuan dari sisi abu-abu kehidupan. Para tokohnya bercerita tentang pengkhianatan sahabat, cinta segitiga, manipulasi kekuasaan, perempuan dengan kecantikan bagai boneka, perpecahan keluarga..dan semua hal yang kadang disembunyikan masyarakat demi terjaganya stabilitas sosial dan moral. Mereka ada di sekitar kita, namun sering kita menutup mata bagi mereka. Mereka berpesta dalam hentakan musik yang keras hingga tenggelam di bawah kerlip lampu warna-warni berkilauan. Di balik perjuangan demi kehidupan yang lebih baik, mereka tampil rupawan dan elok dipandang mata seakan dunia berjalan tanpa masalah.

Hingga yang tersisa tinggallah pilihan: membenci atau mencintai mereka.

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Today, I (finally) got the chance to read my sister's book. Actually it's been released two weeks ago, but since I should read this without my mom knows, twas kinda not easy for me. And this evening..where I sat on the corner of my room, did nothing but read for about two hours, finished this book. I'm speechless. Now I don't even know how am I supposed to feel..

Those heartbreaking stories arranged with splendid structure of words..every fact and fiction she poured out into writing, every implicit and projection feeling. How it brought so many memories, how it got me knows much, how it made me to open my eyes bigger about what's going around while all this time all I can do is pretending to know nothing-trying to be careless-don't wanna be seen that i'm hurt-refusing every bad thing just because I won't accept reality, yet in the mean time, she suffers much, she does endless struggle.

Sometimes, people always think that they are the most unfortunate person in this world, how they hate their life and see it as hell. But they should remember, sometimes it's better to look beneath the line of other people downcast journey to realize that we are lucky enough, to reminds us what gratitude is.

And that's what my sister did. Not only to me, but i'm sure that she inspires many people out there with her true act..the way she always be true to herself.

She shows people that no matter how miserable life is, it has no right to stop us from make a good work.

I can never directly say to her how adorable she is in my eyes even with all of her weaknesses and bad side. But nobody is perfect, right. She is the first person I chose to be my role model. The one who taught me how to stay strong in life..we can't run from our fate, we can't choose where we born, but we always have choices to face it and make it better. God even universe has a plan for everyone..I believe they only chose certain and great people to have an extraordinary life, because they know that we are strong enough to handle it. Sometimes fate plays with us to slap our consciousness therefore we realize who we are, what is our gift. Yet it takes time and probably that's why some people give up. But not my sister.

After all..

May thank you saying would never can pay everything you did for me and the whole family..just watch me grow up, sist. And I promise I'll be a good person whom our parents could rely on later, so you don't have to bear everything alone, no more. I can't believe I tear up right this time.. I remember the words you said to me on your launching night, "jangan dibaca, nanti lo stress." you have no idea how it enlightened me instead.

 

Stay healthy, Stay brave, Stay true to yourself.

You own your life..cherish it. :)

“Sister. She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child.”
―Barbara Alpert

".....We born alone. We die alone."

"Lantas bagaimana jadinya dunia ini, jika seluruh umat manusia berpikiran sama seperti Freud? Aku hanya tidak ingin terlalu skeptis."

"Jadi menurutmu aku ini skeptis? I'm just stand up for my rights and perfectly landed on my feet.

Ini namanya realistis"

-BFF, Barbitch pg 13-14.