“Walk with the dreamers, the believers, the courageous, the doers, the planners, the successful, people with their feet on the ground and their heads in a cloud. Let their spirits ignite a fire within you to leave this world a better place than you found it.”

May-October

Hi wazzup! long time no post anything in here. and btw, now I have so much things to share. but I wouldnt share all of these. it's too much btw :p let me check it.. Last post "May". Okay then i'll tell summarily about what was happened in this six months.

First, about school. Am 12th grader right now :D this's the last year for me become senior, fufufu. and I do really enjoy my last year study at 47 :) now, my priority is just study study study and fight for Psychology UI 2012! yeap, this is my dream. To graduate from 47 with good score and continued my study in there. Actually, I ever thought to continued my study in Australian College. but I have to admit that it's not so easy.. I have to get the scholarship and should have experience as university student. So I decided to make it as one of my dream that I promise myself to make it come true! S2 in Aussie, amen. :)

Well, I have been so busy with all of my daily activities since i'm in 12th grader. I dedicated my time for study and study, and yes, me and my friends Dazzle'012 have to leave cheerleading life cause we have to focus for the exam. I bet i'll miss it so bad :(:(. And then, now I join the extra course, always return to home at late night and get so much tests and try out. Sometimes I got tired, but when I remember about my dream, it makes my spirit comeback :) and btw, I really like my new class and my classmates, it makes me more enthusiastic to going to school. yeaiy!

And then, now about.. LOVELIFE! :p yes, the last time I posted in here, I was still in a relationship with Novian. In July, we decided to end up our relationship.. Actually this's my fault and I just want to be honest with myself, and I just want to focus on study in this 12th grader. Then I want him to get his dream too, to become a dentist :) his life is still so long and I dont want him to stuck with our situation.. we decided to end it up but hey, we still become a good friends till now. and I love him as anything. :)

This kind of feeling is very different with my feeling for 'that another guy'. it's such an innocent feeling, there's no sin and someone who need to be damaged. hffff no need to discuss about it.. :p and yeah, I decided to let myself being single till I get university! yeaiy! :D I dont need to expect to someone and i'll go with myself, I just want to be an independent person. While learn about how to decrease my feel for that irresponsible guy at there........... :) I have been through so much badtimes and so much ups and downs just because of 'him'. it's almost one year since that day and I still never thought that it could be like this. but yea, I already can control myself now, include my feelings and tears :p. There are so much lessons behind every pain.:) thanks for makes me damn much stronger and wiser :p now, I just can pray for the best. the most valuable lesson that i've been learned is about how to forgive, how to let go and next time, dont give ur trust easily to irresponsible person, I have to believe that i'm brave enough to face this. it makes me more appreciate to myself.. and for you there, just goodluck with ur new life :)

Well well well.. that's just a piece of my badtimes, I do have some goodtimes too! :D this is about my friends and someone I called "FISH" :D:D

This's highschool!!!! you'll be so regret if u dont have some goodtimes with ur friends! yeaiy, and i do have that goodtimes! :) with my closest&craziest friend "gee-sweet" and 472012 :D

I really love my bestfriends, Medina Ona Teye Fivo Shela Anis Arvi Julie Hilda and Ilham <3<3 we always been there for each other, we laugh together, being crazy together, share about anything and love each other ({}) I can laugh and cry so loudly infront of them. they care, they entertain, they make me feel better. sometimes they're out of insane but I still luv them!! mwach! we had so much goodtimes and unforgettable moments. And then, my-social-three and also Grave2012. love them!

And hell yes! now i'll tell about FISH :D he is...............my mood-booster, my heartbeat-maker, my new spirit, my smile-source, yesssss I like him so much! <3

I just found him about these 3weeks a go. and i dont know why, maybe this's called "love at first sight"? hahahahaha lol, no! i dont love him. I just like him, but too much! he has a good grade&score at school, he's such a religious person, it motivates me to be a better and smarter person :D since he came into my life, the frequencies of my smile is growing more often, drastically! and also my spirit for going to school. now I dont hate Monday anymore, lol! he makes my life more colorful, I can be so glad just by seeing his face, and I dont want something more than this. Being in love makes me more cheerful to face this life.. :):)

And fiuhhh. that's all i can tell for now, am gonna post something again when i have spare time.

xoxo